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I fear failure. But, it's not really just failing. It's being okay with it. I mean, I have this image. This image of what I wanna do, where I wanna be, WHO I'm gonna be. It's not a totally different situation than what I'm in now, BUT it would be a significant change, and I think a very solid, consistent lifestyle that says a lot about me, iA. Right now, I have the intention, but it's not in action (intention>action>words), and if God has other plans for me, well, so be it, Allah swt knows best. But if I cause my own downfall, or just don't rise up, I'll be furious with myself, I will hate myself for settling for less. But I'm scared that I won't. That I'll be okay with not rising up, with the excuses. With knowing I could have been something more, but just never went for it. Why would I change so dramatically like that? I think it's because if I settle, then I know it was just a phase. Just another burst of passionate youth, another aspect to be obsessed about, and that's nothing to be taken seriously. There's no purpose there.

ANSWERS, NOW!

When do you know if you're judging somebody? And if you think you know that person well enough, Who are YOUUU to say you really knowww this person? That you can predict what their about to do, but more importantly, why they do it? And if you still answer 'yes, i know them' with an assuring nod, then how do you know they won't surprise you? Aren't you being a little harsh? Not having enough faith? What if it depends on the situation? What if something's affecting you're judgment? We are biased, after all.
Somebody tell me, please. Because I don't know what to do anymore. Right now, I'm predicting the answer is: "Well, you just don't really, ever know". But that's judging too.