10 minutes is much too long.

Dang, this week, next week, and the week after are supposed to be crazay busay. It'll all be worth it though, right jazz? Make it worth it. 

I've been doing this a lot lately. Maybe I just walk to 5th period alone for too long. But lately, I've been watching people disperse from lunch, and I can't stop..observing? them. Not in a stalkerish way. It's more of a.."What would happen if.." kind of way. "What would happen if there was a sudden, destructive earth quake and that girl was buried under rubble?" I'd like to think that people will come together and help one another in a time of catastrophe. But that's the problem...in a time of catastrophe. Why do we have to wait for a catastrophe  in order to be unified, to care? I think a death in the family is the best example for this. Someone dies, and all of a sudden you have a family reunion and you remember how much you love being with them. Then pretty soon you disperse once more and the next time you see them is at the next funeral. I also like to think that a tragedy is the No. 1 thing that could spark a reality check. We've all had them, and we all need them. When we have them (and I'm talking from an American teenager, gets-everything-handed-to-her point of view), it's so powerful, so amazing that you're so insignificant yet have so much potential, that you don't know what to do with it. So, you usually just end up marveling at the world in awe, and the next day, you're back roaming around aimlessly. So yes, I'm sure we've all experienced reality checks. But, I think we need to have this reality mentality. To just have this aspect in the back of our minds that we're so insignificant, are problems are so meager that it's almost disgusting that we don't think about how lucky we are every minute of our day. With that mentality, I think we can find comfort much easier. Be much more relaxed. Realize that there are bigger, greater, much more important things out there. And they're the things we take little notice of (family, food, health). Now, I'm not saying sulk in guilt and never exercise your blessings. These were given to you by God, enjoy them. But also realize that they can be taken away just as easily, at the tiniest turn of events, and you don't know when, or how, or if it will even happen. I dont know, it seems to me that when we realize how insignificant we are, we actually become much more aware of our world, ourselves. 

Just admit it, you're completely vulnerable.