Thanks

So, maybe I don't tell you this enough, but thank you. I realllly appreciate your respect, understanding, and acceptance of my decisions, and your efforts to get other people to do the same. It's a load off and gives me comfort.

So, once again, thnx, TRUE FRIEND.

(i hope you know who you are).

The Heart is a Lonely Hunter

Purdy, you're killing me. Keep doing it please. Today's just one of those puffy eyed sundays. Something's wrong with me. Ha, it's kind of ironic actually. You said we're all living in a fantasy world, not really making much out of our reality. And I'm doing that, but in the opposite of how you think I'm doing it. I think it makes it more depressing. My two sides are hating on each other right now. The emotional, dreamer, lover, yearner (my favorite of the two) is holding on to some hope of reality. Meanwhile, the realistic, boring one is telling me not to cling to so much, because you probly won't get it. This always happens. And then it plays the guilt trip, by telling me I'm unappreciative, not giving people enough credit, ungrateful of my situation. Things could be worse. I know, it's just..I guess they could be better too..But stakhfurallah.
And now I'm thinking all my priorities and yearns aren't getting me anywhere, maybe i need a change in plan, but at least this one ensures results, how do i know what i'll get of the other one? It could be a bitter disappointment.
When I think about it, everything I want has nothing to do with me, it has to do with everything around me. I know why though, it would make everything that much easier. Or maybe I want success. So...maybe instead of living in the fantasy world, use it as a motivation for what I could have. Through example and strength and living my own. And the rest is all up to you this way. Yeah, maybe I do need a change in game plan. But I can still live in teh fantasy world right? Yeah, of course you can, just don't cling to it, you'll get no where that way. Okay, I understand. Maybe you're not too bad, realistic one. Yeah, I'm really not. I just want the best for you.

Oh, and hey, maybe you shouldn't predict reactions. That's judging. And you just don't know people well enough to do that.

Posture, Posture.

WTF? T-DAY again? already? c'mon now. That's not right. The only thing i'm excited for tomorrow is lunch w/ a friend and the smell of the theater. But I guess that's a lot to be excited about.
I HATE LOCKS
I LOVE CATS, you guys own the streets.
I'd LIKE it if it i slept blissfully.
I GOTTA wish you good luck.
and PRAY, of course.

Some Punch

Boo, life's starting to suck. I can feel the pull of school immersion. F.U.C.K SAT.AP.ABCDEFGHIJK. So, as things start to get hectic and as I should start easing into the policy of "no life", I have to remind myself:

So suck it up and thank God! (Some motivation too.)