"FCKING has rejected mounting international pressure to cease-fire"

I've never been motivated more in my life. I hope it's not a spur of the moment thing. you know how much I hate phases. I think I've figured out my New Year's Resolution:

BE AS BLUNT AS POSSIBLE IN ORDER TO CONVEY MY IDEAS. No more shitting around. If I don't like what you've said, I will politely (or not, depending on the situation) propose my counterargument, and even if you don't agree with me,even if you may not understand it, I want you to know that I've got ideas and they will be released whenever I find necessary. (This also includes standing up as much as possible in the face of an injustice) This is phase 1 in the establishment.

Also, stop judging. You've learned something new, and you always thought it was different. Now you're inspired, all from shutting down your judging walls and learning. Do that more often. And if your judgments turn out be disappointingly accurate, then that's simply how it is, and you will simply express your ideas (from phase 1). And that's it.
2009: Brave enough? PLEASE! be brave enough. we need to talk. Please don't try to convince me. I hate when you do that. Conscience, I hope you will come out on top.
I wish I was at one of these today.


What a lousy time to not be able to pray.

"It's just a book, it's justa book"

I hate thinking about:
Abbreviated tests.
T-shirts.
OldFolks Homes & Libraries
leftover HW.
...that's pretty much it. But it's overwhelming sometimes. To take my mind off the pressure, I really need a release...like finishing up the twilight saga. But i'm stuck on part two =(

PS: THANKS for the heating pad CAN, it's like your psychic or something.

Second time around.

Today was chill much. Watch crapTV for a couple hours, "practice" SAT sections, do ONE notecard for us history, meet melly at goodwill, score some cute stuff, dyehair, watch I Survived...Ok, i'm gonna make a vow to myself starting from now: whenever there's crap TV on aka reruns, reality shows, things that won't benefit you in any way shape or form, ditch it and hit the book&homework. Do something productive--novels are fun (yay,,, i can finally jump on the Twilight bandwagon now), you kinda enjoy making notecards, watch one of the classics your bro's been telling you about, learn that language to so you could "motivate", set up those recyclable boxes, volunteerfckkkkkk! 

gotcha.

AND:

A cool way to recycle materials (kinda) or a new marketing scheme for the holidays to revive a dying classic? 

It's a bit chillay.

It's official. They've escaped and we're all doomed. You think the rain and the gray clouds are bad? Wait until we're all lifeless zombies hoping to die but never quite getting there. Times like these, I say stick to those you love and protect them with everything you've got. It's the only good left. 

HAH! How long can this analogy go on? Probably as long as the rain & gloomy weather goes on...which i'm perfectly fine with. But I'm NOT fine with those lifeless hooded figures roaming around everywhere.

Danggg, December was crazzay. Friendsies make a something as simple as a birthday the besttttttttt, i love surprises, homemade breakfasts, blindfolds, and pizookies. ASU potluck was a success...praise the freeloaders! But bless the responsible generous. X-MAS PARTY: I never realized how much I miss the pleasure of a bounce house and how frightened the passengers on Titanic must have felt. 

Where are the pictures you ask? Good question. I've only captured very few of these moments and unfortunately, was not able to upload them b/c a) laziness b) it's hella confusing!!!!

But I vow to take more pictures everywhere and everyplace &share them w/ all ya'll. Not like you care, but I just need proof that I was once happy so i could produce an effective potronous (enouuuugh). The only bad thing about break is it'll be over soon. Then what do we have to look forward to? Abraham Lincoln's bday? It truly is the jolliest? time of the year. except New Year's Eve. MMM! i<3tradition.

I'll give you anything.

I feel so, _____________. you fill in the blank. 

HINT HINT: __________. 

come, break. come, gloom. come, fun. come, thinking. come, productivity? 

I'm mad all the time and i don't know why. (true or false?)

maybe i should join Dumbledore's Army, at least that's something worth fighting for. 

I'm happy! really, seriously. Alhamdullilah. It's just__________! (you figure that one on your own, and when you do, lemme know because i have no idea). 

Maybe it's just time that I need to pass by for me to figure it out. Maybe I'm just too harsh on people. Maybe I just believe in too much. Maybe I'm too one-sided. Maybe I'm too passionate about it all. Maybe I'm way in over my head. Maybe it's just a phase. Ihopenot.

PS: i know that you're hoping you're wrong, but we both know that you're not (you're trying not to jinx it).

Today's motive: tomorrow's another day, you judge too quickly.