I want this ish forever man, ever man.

Whenever I think of the disappointing, least likely outcome, I think of Harry Potter and how he has overcome.
1) Naivety sucks. And it doesn't: Though grownups are well intentioned and looking out for our best, you gotta let the kids do it on their own. Just trusssst. Granted, sometimes the youthful naivety can get our godfathers killed as we jump to foolish conclusions, in the end, we'll save the world. Give us our wand and spellbooks, but allow us to decide how to use them.
2) Set aside your differences for someting greater: Whether red-head, culry haired, supposedly evil, or a half breed, we're all fighting for the same cause. And that is the strongest bond.
3) Forever exists: The euphoria can be blinding at times, excitement that this is how you want it and won't give it up. Looking forward to a forever that everyone says is fleeting. BUT. 19 years later, everyone's still close friends because they had that strong bond of fighting for teh same cause. So, I'm looking forward to forever with you all. You're not going anywhere.
4) It is absolutely okay to lash out: Harry has taught me that angst is not a horrible thing. I can be angsty and still see the end goal. And ya'll will be there to take the punches.
5) Lean on somebody: You can't do it alone. And even if you could, it would be done poorly. Ask for help, these people want to help.
"'Cause we are wizards
And our hearts are filled with hope
With curses flying around, oh
We'll stand firm and hold our ground
Our friends, they will fight with us
'Til you say bitter end
But we say better"
-Song for the Death Eaters

Faulty camera in our minds.

Cliches are bopping in and out of my head. Most of them contradictory.

what have i done? what will i become?

Itching

Get out of this skin!!!!

FUYEAH, i'm ready. let's do this already! but ya'll aren't. that's all, the only reason i'm taking my sweet time is for you holder-backers. Remember that. Remember how much time is worth. And then I'm goneee. not forever though, I'll just be back bigger, badder, and much much better.
Less bitter though.

The future freaks me out

Not really, only if its not exactly how i want it to be. I don't even know anymore. The what ifs are killing me. is it really that simple? will it clear away all my bitterness? i damn hope so.

Don't Speak too Soon

Rash? Perhaps. But I'd rather regret an action than regret not doing it at all.

To be continued....

I'm stalling studying for stats. Hey, I'm really happy you're enjoying yourself and have really found yourself and crap...but you really don't need to publicize it. At least be discrete about it. If you're looking to preach, a social networking engine's status updates are not the best way to do so.

As for my future, I wish I had a choice. Ah, yes. Whatever I can get, I am pleased iA.

With a dream and my cardigan

Egypt Summer 2011: Deadline, iA.

I'm not just excited to see my blood again, or live youth full blown, or spend the night with my sisters called cousins. I'm excited to be everything I want to be (from this point).

Egypt 2011 is my deadline to not live vicariously anymore, to say what's on my mind, to learn what I want to learn, get some life lessons along the way, and just be really content with everything. of course there're bumps, and of course I won't be EVERYTHING i ever want to be by that time, but i'll think of it as a checkpoint of going into the right direction. Who knows? Looking back 3 years I think I'd be content with the way things are working out, going into the right directions. There's some kinks to work out, and maybe I should fastforward, but I cannot wait to be content! Just at peace. Ah, I can just tasttee it.

The book I'm reading, "Getting What You Want: The 7 Principles to Rational LIving" explains that when you're able to visualize something and do anything you can to make that visualization a reality, it'll probably come true. How sweet the sound.

GET IT, GET IT.

Yelling Required.

I wish I was as fearless, loud, and blunt as this woman: